yerr!!

he's nt coming 2moro... sobz!

its 2moro!

ok.. so.. 2moro.. im gonna c him... cant wait.. huhu... bt.. its a mayb la.. im scared if my mum.. sudd change da plan.. if he cant make it n such.. anyway... i hope 4 da best.. ermm... last saturday.. was our anniversary.. there i was.. in da car.. n sudd.. a song which he gav me.. was played on da radio... i bet u nvr heard of da song b4 rite... nvr gonna giv u up... well.. it was on radio.. n they seldom play it... i guess im juz lucky... i hope.. i wish... both of us.. gonna last 4eva.. n eva... i really luv him...

I luv u.. i really do.. n owayz do..

yay!! after 2 weeks... of silence... he finally texted me... i was quite shocked... bt i came clean... told him... confessed evything... luckily.. he 4given me.. i tot.. when he din contact me 4 2 weeks... v gonna break up soon... luckily... no... thx god! coz im sooo in luv wit him...well.. it started wit da surprise cake.. which i tot didnt go on well... coz.. dat time.. he... didnt care bout me... nt didnt care la.. juz bz.. so... i tot he doesnt lyk it... then... i scolded him.. coz.. he was away... soo... i told him... is he bz wit all his works until he has no time 4 me.. n mayb... he 4gotten all about me... i was sooo sad... n confused... i wanted 2 break up... coz... i tot he doest luv me anymore.. bt.. wat if he does?? shoo... i asked him.. if he still luvs me.. n he said he does.. which means... a bright new day 4 me.... a happy 1... wit real happiness... nt juz... da type of day when i wake up.. i say... i'll b strong.. i wont cry... i dun nid any1... i juz nid myself... n eventhough hw hard i tried... i cant help myself... bt 2 cry... sad isnt it?? after dat... i told him... da truth.. wat i did bhind his back... n i tot he wud kill me.. luckily he didnt... 1 more reason 4 me 2 luv him.. hehe...n when its time 2 bid gudbye... he said sth sooo sweet... i really miss him y'know... i luv him sooo much n miss him even more... i hope... v can last 4eva... n hopefully... things will b better... i can c him.. as often as i 1 2... n such... 2 b honest... im still d old me... i cant help bt 2 owayz feel jealous.. let it b his frenz... cousins n such.. i dunno wat 2 do... anyway... keep it 2 myself... n when i cant stand it.. i'll tell him.. wat i dun lyk... rite.. nw... its juz my fault.. hehe...im nt being a gud gal... a gud gf... n such... bt.. dats da truth... who can lie bout da truth.. well.. gtg... bye... n take care

A dream?? a hug is all i need...

last nite i dream... of 2 guys... ok... i giv them initials... their names both starts wit da letter h... so... h#1... n h#2... ok.. h2... is kinda soo mean n evil 2 me... he is da reason i cried in my luvly dream(well.. it supposed 2 b luvly)... luckily... h1 was there 2 save da day..(lolx... muz stop watching all da superheroes movies)...he hugged me... n asked me 2 stop crying.. which i did... then... he asked me 2 smile... n i smiled.. n then... i realize.. its a dream... n bsides.. he isnt supposed 2 b in my life.. so... wake up ad lorh... hehe

Wah!!! such a happy day!!! i luv it... n i luv those ppl in it...

well... erm... woke up @ 7.30... get ready 4 an unofficial date by 9.30... y is it unofficial?? well... coz... erm... dat guy... i went out wit... isnt my bf... juz sumkind of reunion 4 us la... since da last time i saw him was last month... n... he keep on asking me... 2 go out wit him... well.. bsides dat.. i brought hidayu's whole family along... haha... so dat... nth suspicious will happen between us... such as.. he say i luv u... omg!! im nt gonna let dat happen!!! well.. watch movie... erm.. congkak... vv nice lerh... serious... i was sooo scared... dat i hugged hidayu... n when i sit up straight ad... he placed his head on my head... omg!! dat was weird.. i asked hidayu if she mind shifting place... bt... she refuses.. she thought i wanna kenakn her... bt... its ok la... as long as he didnt put a knife at my throat... i can survive... ermmm.. then.. after movie... shopping!!! d oni way 2 get rid of him... i figured out... was... 2 go in2 a gurl shop... which is ez... n then.. ermm... when i tilt my head a bit.. he oso do da same.. kinda mocking me... so... i merajuk la... n juz bcoz.. i merajuk... qhe went back home.. witout informing me.. i was sooo worried.. wat if he disappear?? if sum1 kidnap him!! all kinds of scenarios went in2 my mind... i was sooo scared if his parents blame me.. haih... well.. since.. im da gud gal.. i begged him 2 meet me @ da starbucks... n had a quickie chat... n then... chao! a better proper way 2 say gudbye... anyway... although i was annoyed... when i think back.. i had a fun time.. isnt it wat matter da most? i mean.. he is kinda sweet.. juz dat.. i cant accept him.. coz im nt available.. im no longer single.. whether i h8 it or nt.. im sum1 else's gf..